You should have went in thinking I'm here to improve. You were already thinking negative when you said you aren't the best and you knew this, whenever I begin catching myself thinking like that I turn it around to "I'm here to learn and improve." Of course it was not for art and yes, the art spoiler is as far as I read. You were just going with the motion by taking up art a spur of the moment thing if you are not interested you are not interested. No depression, depression is that sinking feeling in your chest that eventually drains you out from wanting to do anything at all.