When everything in my life crashed at once at 20. Began hating football, girlfriend broke up with me, failed out of school (basically), major depression, family finding out I smoked wacky tabacky, car being stolen, no job, and having to move back home. All the while believing that I was "suppose to" be in that state to become stronger and climb out of it. And then I did and here I am two years later, living, rather than dying. But still technically dying. But. Y'know.