If you need help, see a professional [b][i][u]irl[/u][/i][/b] who actually knows what they're talking about... Chances are - and I'm going to be blunt - if anything some randoms say to you on the internet [i]helps[/i] you, your problems weren't much of a problem to begin with. It's (and as much as I absolutely hate saying this or hearing it) all in your head. I'm not trying to minimize whatever your issues may be - even though I technically am - I've just noticed a pattern with this sort of thing in the five measly years I've been here. If you need help, get real help.